Life...

I was prompted to update, so I will. I guess most of you probably already read my personal blog so you know the updates in my life. Things are going good. I'm happy with my job and so thankful for the flexibility it has given me. It's been a rough couple of weeks with sickness and all, but it's just that time of year!

I still am continually blessed by so many people doing nice things for me. Some I know about, some I don't. I'm still not sure how comfortable I am in people knowing everything about my life, but as I've said before that if it helps someone someday to see how God has blessed me through others given the difficult situation, then it has served a good purpose. I just want all the glory to go back to God.

Sometimes I still wonder about my life. What it's purpose is, what will happen, where I will be in 5 years...all common things that everyone wonders about their own lives. While it is still very difficult sometimes and I often feel that I'm lacking in so many areas; God sees me through. I constantly have to remind myself that this is not about me. It's not about my kids. It's about what God is doing in me, through me and this is ultimately HIS story. I just have to have the faith to hold on and know that He means me well. He would never hurt His own children. That can be easier said than done, but I've been through enough to know just how AMAZING God really is. I have my times when I get down, discouraged, and depressed, and then God sends me a rainbow. The rainbows keep me holding on.

The holidays are hard for me. And not because they're the "holidays", but because there are many anniversaries for me that psychologically trip me up. I guess someday they won't, but right now they still do. I know that everyone looks at the holidays as the gift giving time of year, and while it is...I also say don't forget about what is most important. Love your families! Love your spouses or mates. Love your children. Don't take them for granted. They are gifts given to us by God and they will not be with us forever.

I hope this doesn't come across as a downer, I don't mean for it to be. I guess if ever there was anything I would people to do and remember this time of year, it would be that. I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving! Be blessed and thankful!